Before i turn 30, i want to ......

Been miserable these few months due to something that aren't going according to what i had wished it would be..hmm..the mourn n denial phase are gone, so i'm back with a good energy *wink*...past is past, tomorrow is always a new day to look ahead and i will enjoy today like it's a gift as we are still given the chance to live it (wow...never thought i would sound so positive...i like the new me)..i love the way some of the people that i know whose always put things or turn everything into a positive way...envy them!!

I always have these things in my mind..what i want to do, what i want to be. So now i want to list down few important things that i want to do/have before i turn 30, which is going to be in less than 2 years...(yes..when i say turn 30, it's not 01/01/2011 but on 20/09/2011)

Before I turn 30, I want to...

1. Go to Mekah

Maybe it's impossible to go for Haji as I have to take few years for my turn and i haven't registered for it yet. But i really hope i can go for Umrah. Seeing people going there and plus my parents are going there for Haji this year makes me really really really want to visit this Holy land...InsyaAllah...and this is...the top of my list!

2. Build a family

Who doesn't???I really love to be surrounded by a big family and i do hope that i will meet a husband who also has a big family and love to have one too...never miss a prayer for a jodoh every single day :)...this wish share the same top place with the former.

3. Get a promotion

As a government servant, this is out of my hand. All i can do is, pray for it. Amin.

4. Own a house

My dream house would be a house made from woods. Very calm and soothing. Maybe too early to get a dream house at the age of 30, so i would just hunting for a simple house for me to rent out. As an asset for me. Still looking for the location and price, still thinking and thinking and thinking. How i wish money can fall from the sky huhuhuhuhu

5. Change my car

I love my kelisa very much, she's been with me for almost 5 years. She never gave me major problem, but i just want to upgrade to a bigger car. My plan was to have a new car by 28 and get 8228 for the reg number. 82 for the year i was born and 28 for the age i am. May be not my rezeki yet. Nevermind, will give extra effort for that.

That's all for now. Apart from that, i really want to have a good life, be a good muslimah and a good daughter and a good friend.

The truth is hurting!

Sometimes, i rather not knowing than know but then it hurts me! But i'm just a normal person who full with curiosity. I know we can't trust everything on the net, but sometimes that is what we hold to. A fragile info. I am hurt. Really really hurt. But sometimes i thought, maybe that's the answer to my prayer. Allah know what is the best for me. And i'm glad that i know the truth in Ramadhan, so that i can face this thing calmly. With tears of course, but very calm. Very rational, not emotional. Will try very hard to get rid of this thing out of my head. Sometimes i think i want to shut down my FB, because too many info on people's happiness are killing me. I don't want to know.

Kenapa ALLAH temukan kita dengan org y salah ♥

Sekadar perkongsian, selain satu motivasi utk saya dan kawan2 yg senasib dgn saya...

I know it really hurt to be alone when all the people around you are happy with their soulmate and show it. It hurt when u just want to get to know someone and find out he's not the right person. It hurt when someone told u he loves u, then he walked away from u. It hurt if u found out someone u like belongs to someone else. It hurt when u know someone who u think likes u and turned out that he's just not that into u. This is maybe not the cure for your heartache, but maybe it can relieve u a bit. But it relieves me anyway.

JANGAN BERPUTUS ASA DGN RAHMAT ALLAH

Kenape ALLAH temukan kita dengan org y salah ♥

by Sebutir Mutiara Seindah Wanita on Saturday, August 28, 2010 at 4:39pm

Memang sakit bila cinta yg kita dambakan selama ini tak dihargai oleh insan yg bernama kekasih,apatah lagi kita dibuang begitu saja... tapi,itulah juga petanda terbaik untuk diri dan kehidupan kita pada masa akan datang.

1. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya apabila kita bertemu jodoh yg sebenar,masih ada rasa syukur kita pada ketentuanNYA.

2. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat menjadi penilai yg baik.

3. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita sedar bahawa kita hanyalah makhluk yg sentiasa mengharapkan pertolongan ALLAH.

4. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat KASIH SAYANG YANG TERBAIK,KHAS UNTUK DIRI KITA.

5. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita sedar bahawa ALLAH MAHA PEMURAH & PENYAYANG kerana mengingatkan kita bahawa dia bukanlah pilihan yg hebat untuk kita dan kehidupan kita pada masa depan...

6. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita dapat mengutip pengalaman yg tak semua orang berpeluang untuk mengalaminya.

7. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita jadi MANUSIA YG HEBAT JIWANYA.

8. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita lebih faham bahawa CINTA YG TERBAIK HANYA ADA BERSAMA ALLAH.

9. memang ALLAH sengaja menemukan kita dengan orang yg salah supaya kita LEBIH MENGENALI KEHIDUPAN YG TAK SELAMANYA KEKAL.

Wahai sahabat yg kecewa,menderita dan sengsara kerana cinta, fahamilah bahawa kehidupan kita makin sampai ke penghujungnya.

Hari esok pun kita sendiri tak pasti samada menjadi milik kita. Gapailah keredhaan ALLAH dengan melaksanakan suruhanNYA, dan meninggalkan laranganNYA..

PERCAYALAH sesungguhnya ALLAH malu untuk menolak permintaan hambaNYA yg menadah tangan meminta dengan penuh pengharapan HANYA kepadaNYA..

Jangan berputus asa dengan RAHMAT ALLAH

should i let u go?

should i?? or shouldn't i??

it's been long since i last heard...

and we become apart...

may be it's time to let you go...

or for you to let me go...

turn over a new leaf

21 Ramadhan 1431H

Alhamdulillah...dah sampai 10 mlm terakhir..dan aku berdoa semoga aku dapat menempuh ramadhan dan berpuasa dan beribadat dgn sempurna hingga ke penghujung.amin ya rabb..

2,3bulan kebelakangan ni hidup aku dirasakan sgt kosong & helpless atas sebab2 yg tak perlu dikongsi di sini, tapi kedatangan Ramadhan kali ni (dgn izin Allah) bagai membawa satu harapan dan sinar buat aku. Aku rasa tenang. Yang plg ketara aku dapat rasa aku jadi orang yang sgt penyabar...ok..ok...rephrase...penyabar je...nak dpt SGT penyabar tu mungkin jauh lagi kot..tapi tak mustahil kan.

Dulu selalu aku keluarkan kata2 kesat (bkn mencarut ye) kalau orang buli aku atas jln ataupun klau ada kereta yang bawa terhegeh2...mmg kena seranah laa dgn aku. Tapi sekarang aku lebih cool...yes...i'm cool babe!!hehe..tapi klau melampau sangat..memang mengomel gak aku...tapi terkawal..

Hmm..aku selalu naik angin dgn pt kat klinik. Tapi skrg ni..aku jadi badmood klau dengar kawan2 aku marah2 dgn pt. I think they don't deserve to be treated like that. cuba bayangkan klau mak kita g klinik sorang2 dan terkial2 lepas tu kita tengok ada orang marah mak kita, kita bengang tak??sebelum ni aku byk turutkan nafsu amarah aku...apa yg aku dapat...penat...+dosa..insyaAllah...lepas Ramadhan ni aku berazam jadi orang yg penyabar....agar diredhai Allah...insyaAllah.

Tapi agak terkilan sbb setiap malam berazam nak Qiamullail, tapi sbb kepenatan bekerja, tersasar je..sedih! Akan usaha lagi.

Oh ya..sekarang ni aku kerja 7.30am-4.30pm, jadi aku akan keluar awal. Yg paling aku suka, bila pagi2 tu buka IKIM.fm ada tafsir al-Quran bersama ustaz zahazan. mmg berkesan di hati. cara dia ckp cool je.aku suka.. kalau ustaz yang gaya cakap bertempik2 & kutuk orang sana sini, aku tak minat sangat. aku nak menjadi orang yg tenang sekarang. Usaha tangga kejayaan.

Apapun kepada semua yang membaca, didoakan Ramadhan ni kita beroleh sesuatu yg barakah. Jangan biarkan ramadhan ni berlalu begitu saja. Rebutlah segala kelebihan yang dijanjikan Allah. Nasihat untuk diri saya sendiri yang selalu lalai ini juga.

Full Moon

15 Ramadhan 1431H

Malam ni bulan sangat cantik..1st time aku sangat terkesan tengok bulan..tapi takde kamera yang canggih..tak dpt nak amik gambar..kalau pakai phone...mesti tak dpt full effect di hati keindahan bulan tu...

Subhanallah...cantik...aku ulang2 ayat tu sepanjang perjalanan aku dari rumah ke masjid...mata tak lepas dari memandang bulan...cantik...cahaya yang terang tapi menenangkan

Lepas tu...teringat kata2 seseorang..

Walau kita jauh, kita tetap melihat bulan yang sama...yup! Been month since i last heard from this someone, but i believe...we are looking at the same moon and thinking about the same thing...

Oh bulan, aku akan jadi pungguk yang merindukanmu..(dan juga orang yg melihatmu bersamaku dari kejauhan :)

Need You Now

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

woah woaaah.

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all

It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now

And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now

And I don't know how I can do without

I just need you now

I just need you now (wait)

Ooo, baby, I need you now

miss u like crazie...

right now...i really miss someone that i care so much...really really miss him..

malunyaaaa saya...

Ini kisah menyayat hati yang berlaku pagi tadi. Sungguh menyedihkan dan menyakitkan hati...Grrrr...

Seperti biasa, setiap pagi di hujung minggu aku akan jogging di kompleks sukan bertam. Tapi sejak kebelakangan ni, ada je event jadi stadium ditutup. Jadi aku terpaksa jogging di sekitar kawasan tu lah. Depan dewan milennium, budi penyayang etc.

Pagi ni aku pun buat yang sama, tapi tiba2 ada bau yg menusuk hidung aku. Bau sampah. Aku pandang kiri, pandang kanan, penuh sampah atas jalan, atas rumput, atas tempat letak kerana. Ya Allah...apa laa diorang ni. Pengotor sangat2. Memalukan.

Jom kita tengok sikit gambar yang memalukan ni. Kalau laa bau busuk boleh paste kat sini, aku dah paste dah. Biar 1 dunia tau. Biar rakyat Malaysia sedar diri perangai buruk diorang ni.

Salah satu gerai yang ada di sini. Nak galakkan aktiviti kesihatan, tapi tengoklah pilihan makanannya. Burger untuk kanak2 di pagi hari...

Kotak tu penuh dengan sampah, plastik2 tu pun sama.Bersepah2. Kalau nak tau, atas rumput tu pun penuh dengan plastik makanan & bekas air.

Ok, dari gambar ni, cuba kira dah berapa cawan yg dilempar macam tu saja. Sakit betul mata.

Mari kita close-up sikit. Tengok betul2 cawan tu tulis apa dan ada gambar apa?? Ada jalur gemilang kan, lepas tu ada perkataan MERDEKA...Eiii...tak sekolah ke semua orang??Kalau macam ni, rakyat Malaysia masih belum merdeka tau.

Tong sampah ada disediakan, tapi dah penuh. Tengok, tepi tong tu jugak yang nak dibuangnya. Oh ya, ada juga tong yang lain, tapi tak banyak. Yang aku tengok tong2 sampah yang lain2 tu tak penuh pun.

Ya. Inilah tempatnya. Kompleks sukan MPSP. Majlis Perbandaran Seberang Perai yang berperanan membersihkan seluruh Seberang Perai. Tapi lihatlah kawasan sekitar kompleks sukannya. Bukan setakat sakit mata memandang, sangat busuk tau.

Aku quote kata2 Islami,

Tu masalah global kat m'sia ni..buang sana buang sini. negara membangun yang pesat tp mentaliti tahap sifar.tak berubah2.

Well...betul kan. Wahai kawan2 semua, marilah kita menjaga kebersihan dengan bersungguh kerana ia sebahagian daripada Iman. Yang buat aku sangat sedih & marah, orang yang buat sampah ni semua Melayu Islam. Aku hampir pasti sebab kawasan ni 80-90% Melayu kot, jarang2 ada bangsa lain. Jadi adakah kita praktikkan ajaran Islam yang sebenar??Atau sekadar bertempik melaung perkara2 yang pada namanya sahaja Islam, tapi sebenarnya atas propaganda yang lain...

Hmm...sila sampaikan mesej alam sekitar ini pada orang2 di sekaliling anda ye...

MissU..MissU..MissU..MissU..MissU..MissU..MissU..MissU..MissU..MissU..MissU..MissU..MissU..MissU..MissU

tak suka, tak suka...

Apa yg aku tak suka??banyakkkkk...tapi untuk kali ni aku nak cakap 1 benda yang aku sangat tak suka.Aku tak suka orang yang pengotor...oh my God!! I just hate it!
I'm not a super tidy neaty person laa..but i think i take care of the cleanliness..or at least that's what i think...huhu...
Oh tolong laa...jangan laa suka tinggalkan barang2 kotor anda merata2 ye..anda bukan budak 3 tahun..huhu...kalau ada barang kotor..sila buang di tempat yang sepatutnya.Ada baju kotor, ambil masuk dlm bakul, sudah masak atau makan...sila cuci..ada sampah...sila buang..
Hmmm...syukur alhamdulillah aku tak duduk rumah bujang lagi..tapi mesti mention di sini, saya puas hati dgn ex-housemate yg terakhir dgn saya.we get along very well...rindu mereka..hehe..

Kenapa tiba2 muncul post ini??entahlah..tiba2 rasa begitu + kenangan silam menghantui diriku..adoiiii...huhu...

P/s: Siapa makan cili dia yg terasa pedas
P/s lagi: Kebersihan sebahagian drpd iman
P/s lagi: Tak suka juga orang yg ditegur tentang kebersihan, tapi tak endahkan dan buat ayat seolah2 kita ni yang bodoh...grrr...
P/s lagi: Byeee...

When you want it the most there's no easy way out

When you're ready to go and your heart's left in doubt

Don't give up on your faith

Love comes to those who believe it

And that's the way it is

-Celine Dion-

Tried & always trying to believe it...Guess i haven't found it...Not just yet!

1st post of 2010

It's April 24th and this is my 1st post!been relying on FB to update my views and activities and once thinking of terminating this blog...my oh my...sorry my blog.didn't mean to ignore u...


So many things happened around me..people come and go...come and go...some make me happy, some make me sad..


Losing people are just unbearable..when they are not around..i just feel lonely and loose it all..cried all nite..


HaHa...sorry...no intention of turning this blog into tears!!sorry...

my source of strenght

mia familia